I had my blood drawn this morning to see if it was ready for the next round of chemo. Just before lunch Molly (my APRN) calls me to tell me that my blood is not better than Thursdays draw but in fact worse. I am now nutripenic (not sure the spelling and feel too shitty to look it up, but you get the point). So instead of getting my third round of chemo (not really too sure why i feel so anxious to get that started) I get to go in tomorrow and get another fill up of red blood and platelets. The icing on the cake is that I get to have another bone marrow biopsy too. For those of you who don't know what that is, its when they go in and take some marrow from inside your bone (of course) and a little piece of bone (i guess, thats what i read at least). What its like is pure hell. They lay you down on your stomach (the two that i have had were taken from my hip) put no where enough drugs into your iv then stick you with a needle for the local, which hurts all by itself (yes i am sick of being pricked and therefore have become a wimp) Then they "drill" a hole with some sort of hand tool that feels like a whole bunch of pressure, like the doc is using all his weight to get the damn thing to go in. then they stick some needle in (again, what I've read and can imagine by what it feels like. since I've been on my stomach, thank goodness I haven't had to watch) It's this needle thing that hurts like hell. I'd rather have a baby again than go thru this pain. Its worse knowing what to expect. At least the first time they said it was going to hurt and you prepare yourself for a little prick... then the involuntary screams come...
Anyway, I am nervous as to why my blood isnt behaving. Obviously since they want to do the biopsy, they are nervous too.