There I go again, neglecting my peeps.. I suppose in all fairness I’ve been neglecting quite a lot these days. I have found myself on a down swing emotionally and the swing isn’t much higher physically. I’ve been sick now for 4 months and man am I sick of it. I suppose the part that really gets me down is that I’m not almost done and I have a pretty good idea of what lays ahead of me (at least the bare minimum of what lays ahead). I just don’t have the energy to deal or cope. It seems like I am in the hospital at least 1 to 3 days a week so the thought of getting anything done is just… well not worth it. Never mind wanting to go back to work and forget about a personal life. I feel like a big whiny baby to even say such things out loud but it’s really starting to take its toll on me.

      Ok whining aside, this is what has been up lately. Since the last blog entry, I have gone home for a few days, then back to the clinic for a couple days and back home again (or something like that). Turns out that there is a bit of staph in my hickman. Yuk. Been doing the antibiotic thing but they don’t think that antibiotics are going to do the trick. So as far as I know (doc appt today will confirm) I am going to have it replaced next week. Double yuk! I was scared getting the first one put in and I didn’t know what to expect.. now I know.. and I’m still scared.