My commute is bout an hour ten on a good day with no traffic. I strongly dislike the commute. If I could do what I do and get what I get.. a little closer to home.. I'd be thrilled. I suppose at this point, you can assume today was not one of the days that I enjoyed that hour of "me" time. I think I'm expecting my body to behave as it did before cancer. I mean, I am in remission after all. Doesn't that mean I'm cancer free? All my blood counts are "normal" so everything else should be normal too, right? Well I guess my body has it's own set of answers. I'm exhausted. My mid week is pretty much non stop between work, the class that I teach and my skate night. So by Thursday, Im pooped. I had a really hard time this morning keeping my eyes open on that damn commute. So once I got here I curled up in my backseat and took a little nap. I feel a little better but.. ooo I can’t wait till I get home. I think my girls pretty much know that they do their own dinner and put themselves to bed on Thursdays. Course it doesn’t always work like that.. but a girl can dream.

Funny how everything is so easy to blame on cancer, eh? My doctor said this to me once and I was like “yea, when it wasn’t like this before, and now it is.. then seems like it’s cancer/chemo’s fault” My doctor is kind of a hard ass about a lot of things but I still enjoy him and besides, sometimes he makes some valid points. I don’t really believe that my tiredness is a result of going though cancer treatment, it’d be nice to blame it on that but I know it’s just because I’m not taking care of myself as good as I should. There are other things though, that I can clearly blame on cancer. I now have a fairly serious case of IBS (Irritable Bowel Syndrome) that I never had before. Since chemo is known to affect your guts, seems like a no brainer to me. He would never agree (and in fact he doesn’t) but that’s a debate not worth having cuz the fact of the matter is that now I have to deal with it regardless of fault. Another thing I’m not sure is chemo related cuz it’s just too weird and I’m not sure but I think I’ve heard of this happening to other non-cancer folks, is that I now have an egg allergy. I used to eat eggs by the dozen (egg whites mostly).. I LOVE eggs. Then one day I had them for breakfast and got a stomach ache.. didn’t think too much of it, kinda blamed it on IBS until the next week I had eggs for breakfast and I got the same stomach ache. It wasn’t an IBS ache so I became a little suspicious. This happened one more time before I decided to test my egg theory out once and for all. Indeed, I ate some eggs and had such a stomach ache that, while I was curled up in a fetal position on my bed, I vowed never to eat another egg again. Luckily, small amounts of egg don’t affect me so I can still eat stuff with egg in it, but to eat about two eggs will make me sick for a day.. sigh.. lol, not that you need to know about my egg saga.. I just like to write.