So.. I had to dig myself out of that blasted nor-easter that hit this weekend and I got a blister on my ankle from my boots. The dang thing wont heal, course it's only been two days but its getting worse, not better.

I noticed that I had/have more anxiety these past few days. Not because of anything in particular but just feeling anxious, like I'm going to jump out of my skin at any moment. Course I took some pain meds that might have been the cause but then again, I take the same meds fairly often and don't notice any anxiety.

I feel very blah this morning. I don't want to deal with anyone.. not grumpy, just blah. Course, it IS Monday morning ;-)

I am sure I'm fine and healthy but stupid shit like this plants doubt in my head and even if it's for a minute, I still think about getting checked. I've got excuses for everything and my excuses are logical so they give me permission to poo poo it off. Is that a bad way of thinking? I wonder.. when I was initially dx I only went to the doctor because I had an infected piercing and I knew I was going to need medical attention to heal it up. I think I might have blown off all the other symptoms.. ok, I know I most probably would have blown off the other symptoms.. So.. I suppose my fear is not knowing what to blow off and what address. Since this is a valid fear, I suppose every ache and pain above 'normal' blows whistles and therefore I can't help but consider the worst case scenario. I do believe this has gotten better over time but I wonder if it will ever go away.. my suspicion is that it won't. I suppose we just need to figure out a way to handle it without going crazy..