Ever get to the point where everything is so wrong but you have no idea how it got that way or why or even what makes it so wrong? I’ve been having a pretty rough time lately. I cried all the way to work today and my period isn’t due for weeks. Why? I literally have no idea. Ok.. well.. I’ve got a few ideas but still.. It’s fairly obvious that I need to get away and I plan on doing just that as soon as I can (when my kids school gets out). Will that make everything better? I’ve been chewing on this for a while and pouring over possible destinations. I’ve allowed myself to believe that it just might be what I need but my brain says it’ll all be here when I get back and it won’t fix anything. Is that true? Can time away make me feel better about myself? How the heck did my self esteem take such a hit? The biggest obstacle is that I’ve got no one to go with and since I hate being alone, is a solo trip really what I need? I just don’t know. Maybe that’s the problem. I wish I had someone to hold me up right now cuz I’m pretty down.. Well, that’s my pathetic story right now. Happy thoughts for tomorrow.